Sunday, April 30, 2006
The absence of Andrea Hui can actually kill upon realisation. The wonders of the ways she leaves such an impact on me. (:
AND CHECK OUT HER MOHAWK!!
I miss my short hair. :/
11:21 AM
My day ended on a good note.
Thanks to Andrea and Clare, of course. (:
It's been a long while since I actually had such conversations, conversations that I can immerse myself in completely and will never experience the feeling of satiation. I missed it. Very much.
Conversations that stimulate thoughts, trigger nostalgia, with hints of laughter every now and then. The topics brought up, seemingly distant yet close to the heart. Ironies is essential in a good conversation. Yes, Clare? Haha. I can never get enough of them.
Queen of Mystery and Romantic Ambiguity.THANKS CLARE! I LOVE IT.
Hahahahaha. (:
10:20 AM
Saturday, April 29, 2006
Finally caught up with Andrea Hui Ching Wan.
It feels so good to be talking to her once again. Actually, no. it's not good, the feeling's phenomenal.
I absolutely love her.
And I can't wait till she comes back home, right here with me. (:
Sorry dear, for missing out so much on your life, and for backing out from it for such a long time. I missed you, and I'm glad I'm back. (:
9:07 PM
All it was, was a pack of lies.
It was all words I hear, and they weren't even straight from the horse's mouth. Words that never unearth its authencity into reality. I actually believed them, believed every word I was told. I hoped. Because it meant so much to me. But you never mean what you say. Perhaps you did at that moment, and eventually its meaning just dissipates into nothingness, as if it was never said before. Typical, you're still the same.
I hope too much.
Is disappointment the only thing I'll ever receive from you?
Anyhow, a smile still lurks in a part of me.
Cause now, I know you're truly very happy.
2:21 AM
Friday, April 28, 2006
So what are we doing exactly?
1:03 AM
Thursday, April 27, 2006
Fuck.I don't want it repeated all over again.
Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!
To think I was actually going to move forward.
I guess it'll never be possible now.
How am I going to face her?
I've no shit damn clue.
4:48 AM
Maybe because you're so different,
that's why it's harder to forget.
4:03 AM
I'm my mommy's baby. (:
I wanna be with my mommy forever and ever and ever amen!
And I don't give two hoots if you may deem me infantile, because this bona fide happiness and love can never be extirpated nor replaced. To have mommy smiling together with me, just talking, laughing, playing, it's the best thing that can ever happened to me. Like I've felt the touch of heaven. I think mommy's an angel. (:
Girls, move aside.
She's the woman I love most, and that'll never change.
She's the best mom in the world, especially because she can deal with a daughter like me.
I Love My Mommy! (: (: (:
2:21 AM
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
What's with guys and their egotism, PLUS (there just HAS to be a plus) their farcical mentality of their overrated selves? UGH.
Just when I'm starting to love being with my brother, he just to morph back into his annoying self. He actually possessed the chutzpah to deprecate me, that I can actually play his HAILED game of soccer and thus the injury. Such a piece of ass crap, really! So now he has the ability to flaunt his oh-so-wonderful skills, that he's part of the Home United Junior Team, he can disparage everyone else? To think I was the one who actually taught him that stupid game of 20 guys chasing after a stupid damn ball. UGHHHH. He's THE type of guy I ABSOLUTELY abhor. WHY MY BROTHER?! Damnit. I'm gonna knuckle-punch him in his guts if he dares expose me to his appalling gasconade again. Bluidy dickhead.
And I must learn to extirpate my jaundiced eye. :/
6:12 PM
I need to be more glam while doing sports, really. I injured my left knee and right ankle while playing soccer today(yesterday) during PE. And got rammed in the face by Cassandra's mighty kick. OUCH. hahahaha. But I had a helluva time! It's been a long while since I last kicked the damn soccer ball. It has always been basketball. Plus it's no big, I think. Had much trouble with walking about initially, but it's much much better now. Thanks to all my sweet dear classmates especially Amanda and Cindy for being so helpful!! And of course, my dear FLP too, who literally sweeped me off my feet along with Amanda. HAHAHA. DAMN SCARY. (: (:
Caught Art Of Seduction today with Wanyi. Was really glad to have spend some quality time with her especially since she has disappeared from the face of the earth and into her own realms of super-mugging. We were going hysterical in the cinema with the show's hilarity. It was damn cute la. Hahaha. I love korean shows! (:
Mom and Sis are finally coming back tonight. I can't wait to see them again. I think mom has the impression that I didn't miss them at all since I didn't even text them. Ha, ohwell. I just hope they get home safe. With oodles of shopping for me, of course! Hahaha. If only hugging was normal and not that awkward in this family, cause right now, I'd really love to hug them both. Miss them kinda much.
And recently, my ipod and everyone around me has been reminding me of the song
Wonderwall by Oasis, which I can't decipher whether it is a good or bad thing. What exactly is the meaning of the song? Someone please enlighten me. And till now, I still have no idea how you have managed to leave such a deep impression of your essence upon me. I never thought eradicating you completely outta my mind would be that tough a job. Ohwell. Nonetheless, I hope you're doing well.
3:37 AM
Sunday, April 23, 2006
HAHAHA FTTHT:
belle: "eh it's not raining on my side."
sem: "well it's raining on my side. IT'S RAINING. do you think rain(the korean singer) is hot?"
belle: "HUH. how can rain be hot? rain is cold what."
Hahahahaha. Ripped that off Sem's.
Missed all those late night at-least-an-hour-long phonecalls.
Though we've matured with our lives not completely intertwining around each others' anymore, my heart still says I love you most. (:
3:12 AM
Friday, April 21, 2006
The Things That Yasmin Educate Me.
- 3 out of 1000 men are well endowed enough to fellate themselves to orgasm
- 28mph, speed of ejaculated spunk.
- 250 pounds- the total weight lifted by chi gong master mo ka wang with his erected penis
- 11000 americans injure themselves yearly due to trying out bizarre sex positions
- Someone paid 40000bucks for Napoleon's penis
- The record number of orgams by one woman in an hour is 134
- 1% of women are able to achieve orgasm solely thru breast stimulation
- It takes 1 hour for a sperm to swim 7 inches
- 1cm- World's shortest erected penis
9:47 PM
School's been stressful and exhausting. Also, very much enjoyable as well as infuriating. Why?
I got my phone confiscated by Hung.
Will only be getting it back next thurs, so please do not contact me at the 9871.. number. Annoyingly, that's the Day-Night Free Incoming line. UGH.
I tie my 'tail' up in school now. Sis says I look like an 'Ah Soh' but so be it. It was getting my on nerves. And so is my current STRAIGHT OUT FLAT hairstyle. Boohoo. I miss my mohawk, my short fringes, short hair.. EVERYTHING. Long hair sucks. Really. Everyone should just cut their hair SHORTTT. I like short hair boys and short hair girls, and love it even more if its Emo enough. WOOHOO. (:
Mom and Sis are in Shanghai. I hate them for abandoning me with the masculinity of the family. I hate dicks. They're selfish and snatch away blankets to cuddle up in warmth while leaving you in the cold. I pity mom, really. I WANT A GENTLEMAN SLEEPER. Yes.
If only thoughts and emotions could be controlled that easily.
8:53 PM
Sunday, April 16, 2006
I think I might possibly like you more than I think I do.
Hmmm. (:
2:03 AM
Saturday, April 15, 2006
Tonight I leave consciousness with ineptness enveloping every part of me in vacillating agnosticism.
I shouldn't have ventured into the past.
Amour propre no more.
2:08 AM
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
(: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (:
I've caught the disease of smiling-to-myself.
All because of you. (:
11:17 PM
Yawen just sent me this through friendster.
She makes me smile like I'm the happiest moron on earth.
(: (: (:
12:22 AM
Monday, April 10, 2006
"Do you know the only value life has is what life puts on itself? And it is of course overestimated, since it is of necessity prejudiced in its own favor... To himself only was he of value, aand to show how fictitious even this value was, being dead he is unconscious that he has lost himself. He alone rated himself beyond diamonds and rubies... He does not lose anything, for with the loss of himself he loses the knowledge of loss."
--- Wolf Larson
The Sea-Wolf by Jack London.
10:32 PM
So something happened at tuition yesterday.
Our Macs order only arrived at 1130 when we were assured our orders would arrive at ard 1045? That really pissed Mitch off. A hungry man IS an angry man. Albeit it may have been the Rider's fault to have commit the act of tardiness, I honestly repudiated the way Mitch reacted to the whole situation. Thereon, it altered my discernment of him. From actually trying to faze me, he inadvertently did the contrary.
Don't get me wrong, I like Mitch. In fact, he's one helluva interesting being. Accomplished and intelligent too. He claims that it was just a mere act when he deluged every ounce of his superciliousness onto the Rider so as to 'screw' him for showing up only this late, especially with KAP being only a mere 5mins walk away. He actually exploited the fact that he was a member of the media to browbeat Macs. I can't help but feel that it was downright knavish, and indubitably deplorable.
I absolutely detest the fact that one could be so condescending towards another even if he or she has strived hard to attained their current status or affluence. So you think the credit of everything good that has been churned out of your life is awarded to you, and solely you alone? Honestly, Society is just another ameliorated rubic of any other ecosystem in the world. Interdependence is the word. Perhaps people around you has never intentionally contributed to where you might be in this world right now. Nor do they know nor you know that they have actually impacted it in some way or another. Be it significant or not. But they have. Even in the most trivial of issues you can ever possibly imagine, haven't they contributed at least a little?
I don't know, but I wish that could be an undercurrent of mutual understanding or something that would actually mould us into people who are completely inundated with appreciation for another, be their acts big or small. Appreciation -- the one trivial act that could glue a smile to a person's face whenever thought of. True that not many can actually see eye to eye with each other, but at least appreciate the fact that one tries to do the best he can, or perhaps try to embrace his shortcomings. One thing that I've yet to fully grasp. But irrefutably, I will try.
Well. To think that Mitch could even feel triumphant through condescending others, it silenced every word I could possibly say. I still like him as much though.
To step on others to feel that you're tall divulges nothing but how insignificantly small you actually deem yourself to be. That is what I think.
Shoot me.
6:09 PM
Sunday, April 09, 2006
:) :)
She refused to put down her drink. I've no idea why.
She has an emoticon that looks EXACTLY like that. hahaha!
My Tai Jian!! SO CUTE RIGHT! :) :) :)
So last night was good. Great, in fact. :) Yawen's taste -- totally different. So for the first time in my life, I tried Spinach Tortellini, and it was really not bad. I didn't even knew such a dish existed in Pastamania. Haha and so it happened twice. First with dinner, then with drinks. We entered the place, got seated, exchange a few sentences, decided to leave for elsewhere. Quite embarrassing la, but it's okay! :) Watched Keeping Mum, which was.. Interesting. Haha. Much better than I thought it'd be. Yes yes, my Tai Jian has fantastic taste for food, drinks and movies.
A few funny things happened. Like.. The Escalator Incident. which is actually kinda cute coming to think abt it. Like Yawen says "We're like dancing" Hahahaha! And GUESS WHO ENTERED THE GENTS LAST NIGHT AT INDOCHINE?!!! YAWEN!!! HAHAHAHAHA. I think she really thinks she's a Tai Jian now. So cute right!! HAHAHA! And I was so fascinated with her camera and the ball bearing thingy la! I want to play with it again! hahahaha.
Thanks for the lovely night. :)
10:37 PM
Saturday, April 08, 2006
Yes well, I miss you.
But don't think I can do anything about it
Primarily because you've left me clueless on how to handle this issue.
I've adapted but have not forgotten
I never will.
2:44 PM
Thursday, April 06, 2006
Alice and Yawen make me smile to my computer screen.
Even scenarios of abrupt bursts of laughter occur often.
Hahahaha. (:
Okay, off to do notes now.
Gotta surrender them back tmr.
11:01 PM
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
I Hate Gingerbread Man.
Screw that stupid bedtime story my momma used to tell.
And honestly, we deserve a hell lot of cip hours for actually baking in this THING. Plus I already contributed a part in marketing. It's redundant double stress. YAY. :/
Oh, and I found my leftie!!!
Dimples Unite!!! (: (: (:
11:41 PM
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Oh yes.
Did I mention that I feel so loved? Hahaha.
I have a darling girlfriend, Yasmin.
A ever-so-lovable FLP, Lala.
An overly bonkers fun-loving old flame, Nic.
And Cass just dubbed me her "Baby Belle Cookie".
HAHAHAHAHA.
I love my classmates!
Well, some.
9:29 PM
I'm selling cookies!!!
For International Friendship Day!
And I'm LOVINGGG it!!
Hahahaha.
I'm gonna be baking the gingerbreadman too!! With Freda, my FLP, and Cindy I think. SO FUNNN. A break away from all the stress from school. Marketing is damn fun, really. I managed to finished an entire slip alr. All the 'scandals' and yadahoo. HA. Can't wait till friday. It'll be busy, but I bet I'll be loving every bit of it. I love seeing happy people. (:
OHHHH.
Guess who smiled at me today! (: (:
9:24 PM
Sunday, April 02, 2006
The past is the source of knowledge,
and the future is the source of hope.
Love of the past implies faith in the future..
11:25 PM
Danceworks was irrefutably an eye-opener, especially with all the little kids flaunting their moves with their cute tiny bodies. Omg, the Acs(p) boys were SO DAMN CUTE!! Wendy and I spotted potential heartbreakers in the midst of them all. haha! so adorable. My brother should have gone there instead of Acs(j) la. shucks. That aside.. CJ didn't win surprisingly. I honestly expected them to be in at least the Top 3. What's wrong with the judges?! How can your breath not be taken away by them? Huh Huh Huh. 5 nutcases. =x Ohh.. and there was this dancer from Orchid Park Sec who absolutely reminded me of Amelina. Hmmm. (: And another that reminded me of Andrea Dragon from ijtp as well! Haha so cute.
Met up with Karina, like FINALLY. Missed that silly girl so damn much la. (KARINA, ARE YOU READING THIS?!) Haha. She ALWAYS says that she'll ask me out, but nooooooo. But nevertheless, I'm very very happy I met her today. She's like my happy pill that's turning crooked. Welcome to the lesbian world, girl! HAHAHA! (: (you can kill me the next time we meet! hehe)
Headed down to JK for prata with all the St Nicks girls -- Karina, Dinah, Wendy, Tanessa, Tricia, Sabrina, Serene, after all that socialising while my stomach was rotting from hydrochloric acid. And albeit I was the only non-sn, I had fun. Haha. And omg, Tanessa absolutely ruined her image in front of me. HAHA. Contents censored. Walked Karina home after that together with Dinah.
And now I'm back home, hoping I'd be able to wake up for Econs tuition tmr. Yes, Belle has tuition now. Yayness. And I just realised its been some time since I actually blogged about my day. Hooray. Okay, I think I got this insanity disease from Yawen, cause she didn't take her medication today. HAHA!
I wanna watch Ice Age 2! Anyone wanna take me out on a movie date?! (: (: (:
And Happy Anniversary to Wendy and Henry! Yes, Wendy is all about anniversaries now. The impact of Hernganator! Hoho. (:
12:51 AM
